FARKIN SHYT~ of a DILEMA wei.. ( when life is fark up part1 )

This feels kinda fark up.. come come let me explain to u.. i got kick off to play in a few more days & i cant really concentrate coz well coz.. okie la wats on most guys mind most of the time.. im not to sure also.. but on my mind now is.. MONEY, A GIRL , POWER ( u see the theory is that if u have money u will have power ppl say ) , & MORE MONEY.. Well then the money thing is not that stressing.. coz can work for it mar.. but its the girl thing.. well its mainly 3 girls la ( lets name them girl A , B , & C la okie makes life alot easier ) lets see how to start le.. okie we start with girl A la okie ( i put in point form okie make my life easier )

Girl A
-met her bout 6 years ago
-changed my life at the age of 17
-really nice
-very understanding
-like her alot
-miss her alot too
-havent seen her for bout 4 years ( but i bump into her lately her look has changed)
-i think she hates me deeply ( dont really know why wish someon could explain)
-wish to go out with her for a lil talk ( but i've lost my ballz )
( Lets leave the rest of the lil details okie i'l just write up the important ones )

Girl B
(now this one's a lil farnie )
-met her bout 4 years ago online
-she was a friends online pal or something like that la
(nowadays technology like damn power so these things can happen i think )
-talk about alot of things with her
-i think she's really nice
-found out from her she used to have this really fark up jerk for a boyfriend
( they broke up recently )
-talk to her pretty much lately on phone thru sms & msn
-but since im poor i havent dated her yet coz i cant seem to find the right time coz
she has to attend college & sometimes i have to work when i dont have classes
( Aihzzz timing timing timing )
-kinda like the feel of talking to her coz she's kinda farnie at times

I think thats about it for Girl B lets carry on shall we.

Girl C
( now this ones interesting )
-met her recently at an event
( wah like a superstar fark i keep metting girls at events.. bangga )
-i find her really cute & her looks resemble somebody
-i dont really know her yet
( saw her once nia le wat u want me to do but yesterday i saw her while i was
working & she recognizes me.. keke.. exchange phone number lo.. more friend
are better then foe u know )
( know for the intersting part )
-ppl tell me that she is the wrong type of girl for me
-dont really get this point though
-sometimes the ppl that i work with are really farnie ( its seems they know every
girls dark secret or so )

( I think thats about it too for girl C. )

Well thats bout it. hmm owh yar my brothers girlfriend wait not girlfriend alrdy lo i think should call wife man & she's leaving alrdy.. thats kinda fast right.. well wat to do.. she needs to study mar.. & i heard hardsequence is bck for 2008.. im really glad to hear that coz its been have a year since they stopped this event.. it'll be really good to see them bck in action.. get to see alot of my long lost friends too.. keke.. but before that.. been to asia cafe alot lately.. spending alot again.. tournement comin up & suddenly i dont feel like play coz its like kinda unfair coz there are alot of pro's that are still in rookie coz they dont have enough points but i hope they will aim for the open catagory coz the prize money is bigger.. im praying everyday they do so.. if not i will lose another tournement.. owh well no point complanin.. lets just play & see how.. anyhow nobody to be blamed coz i stopped for sometime so my shots are kinda farkup alrdy.. dosent matter.. just try.. & now there is this dilema.. cant really concentrate on the game for these few days.. damn.. why does this have to happen to me..
Skiped class today coz was really tired but my mom woke me up to pass her the car keys later so cant sleep yet.. she came bck from singapore today.. owh well wat to do.. hopin later when i sleep i will dream of her.. i think that would be nice.. we'll just have to hope is the right one.. u know wat i mean.. keke.. i think sleeping really helps alot coz i dont know how to explain it but most of the time when im feeling really depressed i'll just sleep.. my best friend taught me this & i find it really usefull at times..

Hmm lets get bck to the main point okie.. So how should i handle this one.. i usually just dont bother.. but i've done that mistake once along time ago & now im stuck with this shyty feeling.. how la.. life kinda sux for me know.. i dont know why.. its not happening the way i want it too.. not as fun as always.. not as exciting & adventerous as times past.. mayb its the growing proccess.. i got alot of theories bout life & one of them is when u grow older u lose the fun-ness in u.. aiyoh wat u want me to do le.. now i really wish i was born rich or mayb even strike the lottery.. coz the i will have MONEY.. the important word in life.. MONEY.. everything revolves around it.. this thing is kinda fark up.. its just a piece of paper.. & there are ppl killing others for it.. wadafark..

Well im really in a very stres up position right now so i need to go have a smoke.. if anyone who reads this post & has something to comment or advice me about ( although i doubt it ) pls do email me on Theycallmegene@gmail.com.. peace..

P/s : no ladies were hurt in the making of this post..